It’s the little things

• When filling out paperwork and I need to list my emergency contact. For so long it was you
• When having to circle single, married, divorced. I’m technically still married, but I’m currently single while in the midst of divorce proceedings
• Having to remember to take the trash to the curb
• Hearing about a current event and not having anyone to ask or talk to about it
• Seeing someone with a Michigan hat or shirt and wanting to shout GO BLUE so that I could come home and tell you that I made you proud
• Seeing a mutual acquaintance who isn’t in our current circle and he asks me how you are doing
• Watching College Game Day and laughing at Lee Corso
• Knowing that the reason you didn’t like Kirk Herbstreit is because he played for Ohio

It’s the questions that will never be answered

• Am I angry at you Or am I angry at the time I feel you stole from me by having an affair?
• Why haven’t you paid the lawyer yet? It’s been 40 days
• When did I stop being good enough for you?

It’s the realizations

• I forgot how much I liked country music
• I missed natural light filling a room, you always insisted on closing the curtains to avoid glare on the TV
• I really HATED the setting you chose for text message alerts. I told you, but you ignored me
• I missed pizza with more than a meat topping. When money meant that we could only get one pizza, I always defaulted to what I knew you would eat and gave up my veggie pizzas
• Quiet time can really be quiet. No TV or music in the background, just quiet—me & God
• You really had a foul mouth, its nice to go a full day without hearing the “F” word
• All eighteen stations in the car can now be set to what I want… I’ve not changed them yet
• Just because my marriage ended doesn’t mean that God’s purpose my life did